三月

已经太久太久没写一篇完整的文章了，希望自己还懂得如何整理脑里紊乱的思绪，再将它们一一完整的打出来。

最近生活，除了吃饭睡觉😪打豆豆，就是读书。整整12叠高高厚厚的lecture notes, 读完姑且不成问题，但要如何能将那些知识链接并熟练地运用，是个难题，很大的难题。天天在图书馆里待上八九个小时，回到宿舍时那身体那精神已经被摧残的不成人形，但依然告诉自己必须挺过来，否则这两年的努力劳力脑力将付诸东流。最终能否通过大考？能。希望吧

三个星期过后，考试结束，也意味着很多的结束。这两年认识的朋友，去的地方，遇到的种种，无论开心与否的那些事，就将成为记忆。分离这两个字，在我眼里一天一天的出现，一天比一天更清楚。在这里我遇到了许多大大小小的事与人，当中有些是愉快的，也有些是难过的、遗憾的、反感的...如果要我下一个小终结，我会说大部分还是值得怀念的。要和这一切说再见，我应该办得到，但...和你说再见，我还能如此洒脱吗？这种感觉偏要再这么重要的时候到来吗？真的好虐心。

                        

"若不得不分离，也要好好地说声再见，也要在心里存着感谢，感谢她给了你一份记忆"


总要在快临别时，才能看清楚自己内心深处到底在想什么，要的是什么。

不管了，容许我自私那么一下下。 我会暂时放下，专心做我该做的事，就是把书读好，把试考好。我始终相信冥冥中自有主宰，是你的终究会是你的。就算不是，当做是做了一场美丽的梦就好了. Anyway, it feels great that you once appeared in my life.

发泄完了，睡觉去。安。

厌倦了身边的那些脸，那些事......

这世界有时候孤单得需要另一个同类

Restless Tuesday

Being awaken for more than 24hr dy...and still not having any intention to sleep. Last night's visit to Picadily Restaurant for supper was the culprit. Hmm yea it's because of the weird taste peppermint tea I ordered.

Just back from the tiring session of clinical practice from UCSI, think of short napping but eventually was overridden by the huge sense of hunger. Ate an extra-big chic rice with a quenching kopi peng. Oh no the caffeine gonna stimulate my nerve cells again :/ 吃苦，我只能做到前一个 @@ 不管了，在咖啡因发作之前先去睡饱吧 哈哈！

Hi! 2014

Things I encountered recently:

-started Sem 4 of Doctor of Medicine, and it's still a long long way to go before I claim myself as a qualified physician. 

- got a new anatomy lecturer from Korea. His style of teaching is way too different compared to the previous anatomist from India, and seemingly he faces some difficulty in communicating with us. I can only think of the word "cute" when he speaks English with a heavy Korean accent.

-choose to end my relationship due to some personal obstacles. Feeling unprepared to be someone's life partner yet.

-indulged in watching "crayon shinchan" as I found some source of happiness in the process. And I called it as my life relaxant.

-start learning new module-musculoskeletal system after the tremendously overwhelming cranial nerve system. It's Still a heavy subject but thanks god I found interest in learning it. Just discovered I have a well developed brachioradialis hoohoo!

-Phase 1 of Professional exam is coming in less than 3 months, so gonna turn on the sleep-wake-eat-shit-study lifestyle mode. Currently in a progress of transforming into a zombie, AGAIN. Will I survive through the gang-rape of small exam before coming to the final? Just pray hard and study hard lar

Alright it has been more than a year since my last updated blog. It's INSOMNIA, an old friend of mine that directed me here again. Thanks lar but please visit me as less frequent as possible.

Good night (4.34am=.=) 

幸福

什么是幸福？

幸福就是猫吃鱼，狗吃肉，ultraman 打小怪兽 =P

无眠夜

     前几天lab session 时和Ms.Pui 闲聊，她提及：‘我有朋友现在任职医生，听他们说在读medic时，有些人挺不住压力，变神经病了，你以后会不会？’ 当下我下意识的笑笑，摇摇头说不会。但这几天，应该是第三天了，回想起这番话来，顷刻间感到惶恐失措，最近夜夜失眠，白天对着书本发呆，晚上躺在床上对天花板发呆，真怕假以时日，我会开始跟墙壁对话......

   Lol，feel like wanna back to penang, back to my home sweet home at this present moment.The feeling of laying and scrolling on my cozy bed is simply too awesome. At least, I can find some ways to relief my stress, rather than sitting and petrify alone at Angkasa~ haha, dun be surprise if u guys meet me at psychiatric hospital one day...A thousand of dislikes to this exam orientated pre-uni life!

Happy Chap Goh Meh